The youth that tags along in its “innocence” or more accurately naivety certainly seems to ensure there is no lack of confidence in the mistakes strewn about by the juvenescence of their life. For some time now I have bared witness to male dominated fields well into a decade of my being and growth from my own adolescence into the breach of womanhood. There is nothing farther from the truth than age makes you into a woman or a man, that is a title and emplacement that is endowed to those of whom seek a maturity and understanding. Understanding of what, well first off lets just say being capable of taking account of all the rights and wrongs you’ve committed is a place to start at in the ascension to manhood. Now don’t take my stabs all at men because really they are jabs at BOYS, boys whom have somehow forgotten that they were supposed to grow up to be men someday. Yes, I am a girl growing into a woman myself but I stated previously I’ve been engulfed in the “man’s world” for about a decade now and let me tell you my high hopes of humanity have their delves into the true fashions of a CYNIC. Cynical to the ever flowing blood in my body and marrow of my bones; boys are driven by self indulgent ways & as some say “animalistic instincts”. Sure (my eyes are rolling), I smell and call bullshit, the reality is people choose to be egotistical because guess what people like to indulge into what makes them feel good right here right now. In a society where change is aggressively voiced and campaigned for on the daily you’d think that in the propaganda of “DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY” someone in their right mind would shout out “HEY, IN MODERATION”. Don’t assume your life and its actions do not affect others or even the world; who’s grandparents forgot to tell them it’s all about the little things? Now back to the topic of boys not growing into men, well my observations have been equal to that of my hope of change or at least advancement being that of smashing my head against a rock in hopes that more pain will cause my pain to end. Listen, I love people but I hate them more, and I do not believe in the good in people; I believe in the good of myself and the possibility of a better tomorrow. However the actions of others leave me little to rely on them, especially them boys, no matter the age a boy does not become a man at the stroke of 18. The whole masquerade that males and females dance around with the “I can do anything you can do, better” needs to take a damn backseat and buckle the F**k up. There is no better and certainly there is no superior however there are differences as even a blind eye can see. Where and why did this superiority complex begin and for what real reason, the fact that we have boys today even believing this let alone females boggles me, the struggle is real! And hilariously enough the struggle is on all of us; I’m not going to preach inequality here however I can let you know I’ve never let anyone treat me as lesser. Even in the male dominated fields that I have willingly thrown myself into and through all the pathetic measures of malcontent I have received just from breathing in “their air” I have never felt or once believed myself inferior. Say all you can, run your little boy mouth, but at the end of the day I am living through my life bleeding the same blood your (b*tch a**) self is, and not once have I thought you weren’t my equal. I wish for you to become a man one day and to grow from these boys I know with fast mouths and skewed judgments, playing loose with love, and still going home lonely and not understating why. I’ll even take your hand to help you through and not once think of you in a lesser capability of myself, but I certainly won’t hold my tongue to tell the truths of the naive narratives you’re painting up. I am not going to list off all the makings of a man, but you must certainly know a man is not a boy who believes a woman to be his insignificant other.
Call me a bitter b*itch, doesn’t bother me because I am bitter, I am bitter that the potential is being lost in a battle between bodies that bleed the same. Be better tomorrow than you were today, be a man; I am cynical but as I said I believe in a better tomorrow and that includes you too. -SM
-This isn’t I am woman hear me roar, this is I am human and leave me free!
